there is a discordant memory that jostles between my stomache and brain
that is to say that i am hungry
that is to say that i am forgetting what it felt like to be full
that is to say that pleasure is a memory
because certainly to be full is a pleasure
no?
would i say that hunger is a pleasure?
would i say that the memory of fulfillment is pleasure
ah, yes now i see it
that is to say pleasure is a memory and memory is a hunger
and i am hungry, hungry for a pleasure whose taste i do not recognize